One of my biggest insecurities is that I am really good at a lot of really insignificant stuff. Like- not to brag- but I don’t even need painters tape to paint a straight line. Meanwhile, last night I caught a spatula and a fork on fire trying to cook a piece of chicken [not to mention the actual chicken. It was literally just a plain piece of chicken on the stove. I don’t understand how that happens]. I know a lot of things, but none of them seem important. I can explain to you- in detail- the difference between burgundy and maroon, but I know for a fact I couldn’t do a long division problem to save my life.
My abilities seem kinda meaningless when I compare myself to my friends who know how to [properly] stick an IV in someone’s arm or who can name every single important event in the history of the United States since 1776. I can put together a scrapbook and teach you how to write in fancy cursive…?
“Comparison is the thief of joy.”
I so often forget where the abilities that I do have come from. God must not have needed me to know how to administer a flu shot [I am actually so thankful for this]. He must not have needed me to be able to audit a company’s taxes. For whatever reason, He must have needed me to be thoughtful and creative and I just have to trust Him with that.
Where I see what I think I’m lacking, God sees the gifts He has given me. And where I see all the things I wish I knew how to do, God sees the things I could be doing for His kingdom. My abilities count because God gave them to me, not because the world sees them as valuable or important. My abilities- no matter what they are- count when my life is centered around Christ and everything I do flows from that.
“Every good and perfect gift is from above, coming down from the Father of light, who never changes.”
We are all acceptable to God. He thinks so highly of us that He was willing to send His Son to die so that we could live. This was a done deal waaay before you or I came to be. We were already accepted before we came into this world, and there is nothing we can do to change God’s mind. I am not accepted because I possess certain skills or knowledge, I have been given my unique gifts because I am accepted.
We have nothing to offer God. He is the Savior of the World- He doesn’t need anything from you or me. Instead, He offered me [personally] the gifts of hospitality, of creativity, of wisdom and thoughtfulness. And now I am to use these to love and to serve, because the world does need it. And when we commit to giving our gifts back to God by not keeping them to ourselves, He will place people in our lives who need exactly what we have to offer.
“As each of you has received gifts, use them to serve one another as stewards of God’s various graces.”
-1 Peter 4:10
I trust that He has given each of us the capabilities we need to fulfill His unique purpose for our lives, whether that involves being a mathematical genius or having the entire color wheel memorized.
I don’t need to know everything, I just need to know Jesus. And I don’t need to do everything, either, I just need to share Him.