give me Jesus

I have been praying for contentment lately.

One of the things I struggle with most is thinking if I just had this, I would be so content. That’s all I want.

Life would seriously be so perfect if…

…you can fill in the blank with whatever it is you’re chasing after. A higher GPA, a relationship, super toned legs, some material possession…

And then God blesses me with something and I’m so happy! It’s exactly what I wanted! And I’m just so grateful because I think this means my desires are lining up with God’s desires for me.

But then, inevitably, I think of something else I have to have and life doesn’t seem so perfect anymore. My gratefulness level is not so hot. My focus turns from thanking God onto whatever I think is going to give me satisfaction this time. My happiness dissipates and selfishness takes its place.

“Those who seek the Lord lack no good thing.”
Psalm 34:10

God has really blessed me. I have a lot more than I need. And I think that’s okay! The things I have in my life aren’t bad. Desiring something I don’t have isn’t inherently bad either.

As long as Jesus is THE thing.

As long as when I wake up in the morning, Jesus is what I want and need.

As long as my prayer is that He would provide me with my daily bread- nothing more and nothing less. I’m not fixated on all the little, worldly things I think I want. I’m not worried about what I will have or won’t have tomorrow.

God, give me whatever I need for today.

As long as throughout the day, my life is prioritized the way Jesus prioritized His life- I don’t exist to serve my own purposes but to serve the kingdom of God.

“Seek first His kingdom and His righteousness and everything you need will be given to you.”
Matthew 6:33

Happiness may come when I have a new job or a car or a relationship- or even a new pair of shoes if we’re being honest- but it always fades. Circumstances change. People change.

True joy comes when I have a relationship with Jesus that is intimate and fulfilling. He never changes.

And contentment comes when I trust Him to provide me with what I need when I need it. He always will.

“But godliness with contentment is great gain. For we brought nothing into the world and we can take nothing from it.”
1 Timothy 6:6-7


One thought on “give me Jesus

  1. Great perspective Al…miss you already. Have a great week and a great spring break in the great and beautiful American jewel, the Smokey Mountains. What an amazing place to spend spring break….so proud of your maturity and wisdom. Lymtenmw…pop

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